I’m lonely and everything just feels kinda meaningless. And I knowwwww it’s because I put all my eggs in a certain basket that happened to fall apart and I’m in a living situation that I don’t feel super safe in annnnnd I’m making up stories in my head about certain people and it’s making me feel worse. Just a hard night tonight.
Wow I was just scrolling through my page and saw some entires from five years ago. I think we always look at our outward accomplishments to measure how far we have come, but looking back and seeing posts about how deep in the darkness I was and how I have come so incredibly far from that space is so touching. I have so much love for that version of me who held on so tight and kept going through the depths of her emotional hell. It got better. It ALWAYS gets better. The burdens I was carrying have healed and been brought to light and the journey was so difficult. If you told me I would be the person I am today five years ago I don’t think I would have believed you. I am so proud of myself. It’s so beautiful. I feel a little boastful but wow. I worked so hard to challenge all of those thoughts and to create a version of myself I could fall in love with. I love the person I am today. I still make all the mistakes but now I have compassion and give myself grace and I’ve found bigger things to believe in, and patience and adoration for all the parts of me. I could literally cry. Like I don’t hate myself anymore. I still want to self harm and get triggered by rejection and feel suicidal from time to time but holy cow. I really crawled out of the darkest depths of hell. Go Kelsey ❤️
antiquestorewhore-deactivated20:
i’m just curious, is there any artist(s) that you know their entire discography… like everything they ever made is just imprinted in the back of your mind
Ariana grande
